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[25 Jan 2007|11:21pm] [ mood | sad ] [ music | Fall In Love-Love&Reverie. ] I haven't written in this in a really long time. all I can say is the usual is happening to me. you know, the whole 'getting fucked over by a guy' thing. I just love how a guy can tell you he's in love with you, act like everything's alright, break up with you out of nowhere, tell you you're psycho and annoying and they are going to delete you out of their life, stop talking to you, tell you they miss you, go make out with another girl 4 days after you break up, tell you they miss you after they make out with that girl, talk for a few days and act like everything's okay, and then boom it's back to ignoring. I really just don't get it. I am so done with dating for the rest of high school I can't take all this little immature shit. OH, and of course, I have all the rumors being spread about me now and all the friends turning on me again because who knows why. yep. I'm used to it by now. school is hard as fuck. I had 2 F's on my interim. we get report cards next friday, hopefully I've raised them. things are changing this semester, I've already started studying more and procrastinating less. yeppp and that gave me a 94 on my spanish 9 weeks project anddd a 93ish on my chemistry exam. YEAH I got the 3rd highest in the class. mhhhhhhhhhhhm. I need to get out of here. I need a vacation. Butterflies in my stomach.

[14 Oct 2006|02:12am] [ mood | cold ] [ music | family guy. ] livejournal sucks now. school sucks but it's alright. I'm doing better than I thought I would. we got interims andddd: USVA History Honors-B. Spanish 4-85 BAH FOR HAVING A C. Chemistry Honors-B. SAT Prep- Pass. (it's a pass or fail class.) Printing 2-A. Math Analysis Honors-83 BAH FOR HAVING A C. English 11 Honors-A. I now have an A in chemistry and I have almost a B in math. yayyyy. :] I'm playing powderpuff on november 2nd! I'm excited. and blessed sacrament's homecoming is next weekend. once again, I'm excited. boys... :] Butterflies in my stomach.

[07 Sep 2006|09:37pm] [ mood | busy ] [ music | Seven-Eighty-This Day & Age. ] so pretty much I'm not going to have a life this year. everyone says how hard your junior year is, and they weren't lying. it's the third day of school and I've already had so much homework. USVA History Honors. Spanish 4. Chemisty Honors. SAT Prep. Printing 2. Math Analysis Honors. (Pre-Calc) English 11 Honors. I'm pretty much screwed this year. despite how hard they all are, history and chemistry are already my two favorite classes. my history teacher is the funniest man I have ever met in my life and chemistry is just fun overall. and I have a really good class with all people I like. printing 2 is my only slack class and it sucks because I got put into the class with NOBODY I know. at all. it's never going to be able to measure up to printing 1. on the first day of school in sat prep we took an sat test. it was amazingly hard and it was not fun. on january 27th we're taking a field trip as a class on saturday morning and going to take our SATs as a group. fun?... ok the end I have to go do homework. 1 ♥ Butterflies in my stomach.

[01 Aug 2006|04:16am] [ mood | awake ] [ music | Bound to Happen- -The Spill Canvas. ] it's my birfdayyyyyyy! :] weeee alley katz tonight for the spill canvas, mae, and inkwell. :] :] :] it's gonna be a good day. hahah. Butterflies in my stomach.

[31 Jul 2006|02:20am] [ mood | sad ] [ music | Embers and Envelopes- -Mae. ] jksdgkldklj. I never thought I'd be so upset over this boy again. I don't get it. I thought I was over him. but no matter how many times I think I am he always somehow manages to get back into the picture. gdklgjklj. this has been the longest 2 years of my life. Butterflies in my stomach.

[28 Jul 2006|05:11pm] [ mood | happy ] [ music | tv. ] myspace has been being pretty shitty lately. STUPIDHOE. tomorrow's my birfday party! :] hopefully that will be eventful. I've been cleaning all day. bah. MANDER PANDER'S COMING TONIIIIGHT! :] Butterflies in my stomach.

[26 Jul 2006|03:19am] [ mood | confused ] [ music | none. ] AH. hello confused little girl. boysboysboys. ngklsgaklg. make up your mind! scratch that. I think I'm the one who needs to make up their mind. Butterflies in my stomach.

[25 Jul 2006|11:30pm] [ mood | embarrassed ] bah. = / I have the weirdest mood swings. Butterflies in my stomach.

[24 Jul 2006|08:37pm] [ mood | giggly ] [ music | Burn This City- -Cartel. ] :] :] :] I feel like a little girl. but it's okay, I like it. hopefully all of this will turn out good. :] Butterflies in my stomach.

[21 Jul 2006|12:23am] [ mood | jubilant ] [ music | Himerus and Eros- -The Spill Canvas. ] after watching about 30 episodes of legends of the hidden temple, I have come to a conclusion. it's fucking impossible to win. not once did someone make it through all of the temple in 3 minutes. NOT A SINGLE TIME. the show is rigged I tell you. on a lighter note, I'm in a pretty dandy mood. :] PS. it's almost my birthday. 2 ♥ Butterflies in my stomach.

[17 Jul 2006|01:29am] [ mood | tired ] [ music | American Pie 2. ] I did it last year. I'm definitely doing less people this year. but I guess not all of them are really going to be 'good,' but more along the lines of how I 'feel.' Miss Kayleigh Adams. my best friend in virginia since 7th grade. I love you more than life itself, and I can't explain how much you mean to me. you're sitting on my bed right now. :] watching american pie. :] I can't even name all the good memories we've had together. and I'm so happy for you and mister brad. :] soon I will find me a dirtbike boy and we'll all go on dates. hahah. damn I don't even know what to say. mrs. kierson's class this year. that pretty much sums it all up. we made that woman's life a living hell, and I loved every bit of it. and she definitely deserved it all anyways. haha she hated us, mostly you, and goodness gracious did that make the class better. print 2 next year babyyyy! kayKEEZLE and leeSEEZLE hahah you gotta get the spit effect in there in order to imagine all of mr. carter. shit I'm tired. maybe I'll add more to this later. :] Mander Pander! you've been my best friend since the day I was born. and I'm so glad for it. you've helped me through so much stuff and I doubt I'll ever be able to be as good of a friend to you as you are to me. you were there for me this year every single time that I needed it. and you have no idea how thankful I am for it. I miss living near eachother. and I know you're going through so much stuff right now and I really hope it all works out for the best for you. I just want you to know that I am allllways going to be here for you, no matter what. WINSTON EDGAR HALL. like I told you tonight, you are definitely my favorite boy in the whole world. AND one of my closest friends. it's weird how a few months ago I'd be saying how much I didn't like you and now I feel like we've never been as close as we are now. me and you have been through a lot of ups and downs and I must say dweeb you led me on for quite a while there. :[ BUT. in all honesty, I don't think I've ever completely been able to forgive and forget in my life, with the exception of you. and believe me I'm glad I did because you're one of the few people I trust and I just hope you feel the same way about me. I love you fool. :] Kyle kyle kyle. what can I say. we've drifted. quite a bit. at the beginning and middle of this year we were inseperable. I felt like there was no one I could rely on more than you. don't get me wrong, you helped me through more stuff than anyone has ever helped me through in my life. and when you said you'd be there for me at 3 in the morning when I needed you, you weren't kidding. I love you so much and I just miss the feeling of us being such close friends. and it really sucks cause I feel like the thing that tore us apart was when we said how we really felt about one another. = / your timing for me was off, and my timing for you was wayyyy off. but I can say that I'm glad it never went to the next level for us cause I know that that could have completely ruined our friendship and I don't ever ever ever want that to happen. I'm sorry for not being reliable for you. I'm sorry for letting stupid feelings get in the way of our friendship. and I'm sorry for letting us drift apart. oh gosh. so much to say. well to start off I would like to say that before february you were one of my really good friends. me, you, kayleigh, and stephen. we had our own little group and we were there for eachother. thennn it kind of all went downhill from there. all I can say is that I really do wish we never dated. I'm not saying I didn't like you, because believe me I did. I'm not saying I didn't care about you, because ohhh boy did I. all I'm saying is that a stupid 2 month relationship ruined our friendship completely. and I don't think that those 2 months were worth losing our friendship over. and I don't think we'll ever get that friendship back because I just can't seem to force myself to do it. as much as I want to just say 'fuck it, it's over and done with,' I can't. I want to try to be friends but part of me won't let me and I know it will be a while before I can give it another shot. I'm sorry for letting all of this get to me so much. and it may seem selfish to sit here and say I can't get over it, but it really did hurt me. I know I hurt you too, but it just seems like I let it get to me more, and I really can only blame myself for that. Gabriel! ha. we were supposed to stay 'best friends' and we both know that never happened. it's been happening off and on for the past year. but it's okay cause I've never cared for someone as much as I cared for you and I still smile over every conversation we have. even if it does only last a few minutes. I'm pretty damn sad I didn't get to see you while I was down in florida. who knows when I'll actually see you again but whenever it is, I hope it's soon. I miss you a whole bunch and you better come drive up here and see me soon. :] you know. it sucks that we've been friends since the beginning of freshman year, and now we don't even talk. I think the whole chris break up thing played a part. well. I know it did. it just sucks cause like I said before, me, you, kayleigh, and chris were 'the sexy four' and I loved you guys like crazy. I miss being friends with you and chris and I wish none of this stupid high school drama ever happened. haha I miss you fool. little cuzzzz! haha. you're like my own little dr. phil. haha. no matter how annoying I am or pathetic you never make fun of me. :] you're always willing to help me and I love youuuu! it sucks I didn't come up to massachusetts this year. I miss you doofusbutt. don't you worry, someday I'll stop boring you with all of my problems...maybe. :] damnit jimmy I haven't slept in two days and of course yours is the last one I'm writing and yours is going to be shitty cause I'm half asleep by now. but I love you cuzzz and I hope to see you real soon. the end. 12 ♥ Butterflies in my stomach.

[27 Jun 2006|08:42pm] [ mood | amused ] [ music | A- -Cartel. ] once again, another person has lied to me. and told me the complete opposite that they told someone else. gotta love powhatan. haha I can't wait for florida. :] I haven't been this excited in quite a while. 2 ♥ Butterflies in my stomach.

[27 Jun 2006|01:33pm] [ mood | hyper ] [ music | Say Anything- -Cartel. ] tomorrow's my last day of babysitting. YES. it really needs to be friday. I just want to be in florida. :] and then saturday I'm prettttty sure I get to meet up with nicole, melissa, and gabe during the day and then I think it's kristen, katie, and beth time that night. WEE. and then gabe and nicole are coming back with me? and we're staying at a hotel sunday and monday with my momma and lyndsey. weeeeeeee. EXCITING. :] :] :] hahah and then red hot and boom. BEAST. CHEYENNE HERE I COME. hahahah. Butterflies in my stomach.

[25 Jun 2006|07:22pm] [ mood | happy ] [ music | So Much- -The Spill Canvas. ] YEAH I'm a happy camper! florida on fridayyyyyy! staying until tuesday. UNLESS. my mom lets me stay with my aunt until saturday cause my aunt's coming up to our house saturday. hopefully I get to. :] I'M HAPPY. I'm also happy because I finally bought the bathing suit I wanted. haha. it's HOTHOTHOT. and it was $30 off! it was still $60 though. = / OH WELL I LIKE IT. hahah. I have a headache. I have to babysit tomorrow. (IT'S MY LAST WEEK OF BABYSITTING!) we went to laurie's condo this weekend. ( It has a pretty view. ) 3 ♥ Butterflies in my stomach.

[22 Jun 2006|02:10pm] [ mood | annoyed ] so. I'm beginning to realize again why I hate powhatan so much. it's not POWHATAN. I don't mind living here I really don't care how boring it is. it's the people. I just don't get how you can be such close friends with someone for almost an entire year and then all of the sudden something changes and it's like you were never friends. and yet when you talk to them they tell you things and then you look at what they're telling people and it's the complete opposite. I mean. I don't understand. don't sit there and talk about how much you don't like someone to me, and then turn around and act like their best friend. I don't give a shit if you like them. I could care less. but don't tell me that you don't like them. I can't even begin to explain how happy I am that it's summer. because I can finally get away from all the bullshit. and hopefully I'll be able to go and stay in florida for a while because I actually TRUST all the people that I know there. eh maybe I'll tell my mom that I NEED to go. I don't know if she'll understand but hopefully she will. I need to get out of powhatan because the people are driving me insane. 13 ♥ Butterflies in my stomach.

[22 Jun 2006|11:37am] [ mood | excited ] [ music | Kiss Yourself Goodbye- -AAR. ] Overview: -Tuesday I went to the movies with winston and saw mission impossible III. I thought it was good. -Yesterday I went up to JMU to look at lyndsey's apartment and I met up with cappy and he went out to lunch with us and me, him, and blake went to the pet store which brings me to my next point... I WANT A CHINCHILLA. I am so asking for one for my birthday. or I'll buy one myself. I'M GETTING ONE, OKAY. AW. :] Butterflies in my stomach.

[20 Jun 2006|03:51pm] [ mood | exhausted ] [ music | spongebob! ] I now babysit. a lot. 7:15 until 5:30, 5 days a week. the kid's annoying as hell, and it doesn't help that I'm not a morning person. whatver, it's only like 2 and a half weeks and I'm half a week done. haha. I'm trying to make plans for tonight. it's hard work. I want to go to the movies and I'm trying to get ahold of everyone I want to go but ehhh it's boring. haha. I got really bored today and cooked a shitload. it was fun. I should be babysitting. Butterflies in my stomach.

[14 Jun 2006|09:33pm] [ mood | happy ] [ music | Badd- -Ying Yang Twins. (yeah I'm black.) ] SO. today was my first day of summer. :] it was kind of boring, but oh well. me and kayleigh were gonna go to brad's to hang out with him and brandon butttt it didn't work out and that made me sad. yesterday was my last day of school and I just had to go for english. I skipped A block and walked around for most of it and then went and sat in kayleigh's class. then I had to take my english exam which was just that I had to write an essay. eww. thennn kayleigh's mom came and got us at 11 and we went to brandon's house and brad was there and we stayed until 6ishhhh. FUN. :] so today's been a 'thinking' day for me. hah. I mean just thinking about everything I realized that almost all of the people I was 'good' friends with this year, I'm not anymore. and it doesn't bother me in the least bit. I don't think I was ever truly friends with any of them (except kayleigh of course) and I really don't think I ever trusted any of them. summer's good cause you get a break from everyone but this summer I feel like is going to change things and I'm changing friends and I know I am but I'm glad for it. when I hang out with kayleigh, brad, and brandon we don't get bored, and we're constantly laughing. it's like we've been friends forever and shiz and it just really makes me happy. I just started hanging out with brandon and brad and I already feel like they're two of my closest friends. plus, this is only the beginning of summer, so hopefully we'll all be getting even closer. I've lost a lot of friends this year and I think it's actually for the best. I'm actually pretty happy to not be close to them anymore. that may make me seem like a bitch, but it's the truth. this entry was pretty queer. :] 2 ♥ Butterflies in my stomach.

[11 Jun 2006|04:18pm] [ mood | jubilant ] [ music | People that are going to hell- -The Vandals. ] Weekend Highlights: -I rode a goat. -I rode a goat and flipped off of it and my head fell into its water bucket. -I like a boy. -I saw the break up. (it kind of sucked. don't go see it.) -mine and kayleigh's dancing skills got made fun of by a black man. -anddd I like a boy. : ] ( I told you I had a shitload of pictures. ) Butterflies in my stomach.

[11 Jun 2006|12:01am] [ mood | happy ] [ music | Otherside- -Red Hot Chili Peppers. ] new background. :] I felt like it was time for it to change. 2 ♥ Butterflies in my stomach.

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